Day 86 felt like a test – not the stressful kind, but the honest kind.
Yesterday brought quiet clarity. Today asked the next question:
Will I act on it, or will I slip back into old patterns?
The Old Pattern: Overthinking Before Starting
I could feel it trying to return.
The mental noise.
The scanning for the “perfect” way.
The need to be sure before I begin.
My mind wanted to turn everything into a checklist:
• research more
• plan more
• wait for a better time
• start when I feel confident
But I know this pattern.
It looks responsible.
It sounds logical.
But it often keeps me stuck.
The New Choice: One Small Step
So today, I tried something different.
I didn’t aim for perfect.
I aimed for done.
One small step.
One decision.
One action that proves to me I’m serious.
And even if it was small, it felt powerful – because it was real.
The Self-Talk That Carried Me
I had to speak to myself like I would speak to someone I love:
You don’t have to do everything today.
Just do one thing.
Start messy. Start unsure. But start.
Then I added something I needed to hear:
You can trust yourself again.
Mindfulness in the Middle of Action
Mindfulness today wasn’t only sitting quietly.
It was noticing what happened inside me while I moved:
• the fear of making mistakes
• the urge to quit early
• the voice that says “this won’t matter”
And instead of obeying those voices, I returned to the present.
To the action.
To the breath.
That is the practice.
What Day 86 Taught Me
• Clarity becomes real when I act on it
• Small steps are how I rebuild self-trust
• Overthinking is a habit, not a truth
• Mindfulness can live inside effort, not just quiet
Closing Reflection
Day 86 reminded me that I don’t need to be perfect to be committed.
I just need to keep choosing myself – again, and again, and again.
Today, I took the small step that matters.
And I’m proud of that. 🤍
Unfiltered thoughts by Anu 